Broken dreams (15)
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„Madleine decided to go very exactly before as it had learnt it also from one of the
friends nearly 15 years ago when she was 30. She hung on the door of the sitting
room in which she wanted to undertake the attempt with Ralph a sign with the
label: „Please, by entry hold back very quietly, in RF and Marianne.“
INSIDE - SITTING ROOM of RF - MEET
Ralph made it to himself already on the couch comfortable on which before days
RF had that peculiar experience.
Madleine entered this space, smiled something with restraint, went through in
thoughts once again every sentence which she had to say him. And he should be
of course without hypocrisy or salute of which he placed anyway no value.
Ralph `s voice off-screen
„How I could overlook only her face when I visited Marianne, it fascinates in
uncanny manner. If she smiles, it seems as if it was one of those fairies from which
I read as a child, therefore, about her tears one would have to write: if sunrays
have dried your face, the last fold will also have disappeared and you are maybe
the only immortal person. Poetry never was my case. RF pays attention and
estimates I about everything, but this woman is probably the only one which I
would be able to love honestly?!“
Madleine `s voice off-screen
„I must stop immediately dreaming with open eyes. But I can try quietly to imagine
as not existing all signs of the time from his face. Unfortunately, I also succeed in
seeing the young man in him. Still when he was 40 and also still with 46 it
happened that I called him young. I refused to see growing old him who will never
be able to be which one loves or only reveres an old man. RF may never get to
know from my thoughts!“
„And because we are in an actually rather fantastic history which can also never
become true, did not note Madleine follower: One of the souls brought "40", this
number of years to the smile which gave now and again to themselves the
pleasure to make happy people, or what the immortal souls understood just thus
as a fun. This being breathed on the magician easily, whispered the wish: “It is as
you it wishes you, but you determine the right opportunity.“
Madleine felt only one very light dizziness about itself come, collected itself fast
again and taught the man whom, otherwise, nobody might teach.
(Eyes turning away)
„Forgive if I cannot still look at you, besides, but it is already more than unusually
what you expect from me. Maybe it becomes only one attempt, maybe you will
experience the things once again which you never again wanted to see. Of course
we can break off any time the whole if to you should seem a little bit funnily. I
lead back you bit by bit in the past, not in your previous life, in it you do not
believe. We want to come to an agreement so: They tell me which year you just
see yourselves and we decide together whether it may go on and on in the past. If
I see something what I like not at all, I will get you without your approval
immediately there out and you can imagine what I do not like.“
Ralph saw how she blushed for few moments, she had spoken more and more
quietly, threw only one side glance on him.
She closed to him the eyes with a black cloth, still darkened the room and began.
„She went forward almost in such a way as she had done it with RF, however, she
concentrated even more and saw made happy that her method seemed to
function very well. The trip backward by the years was exhilarated first cheerfully,
the man spoke almost too much, now and again his voice overturned, so that she
had to calm him and on and on led back till about 2005 or 2006. From there he
became quiet, spoke more and more hesitantly, until he was quiet.
„I had just asked you to say immediately me what has just happened. Which year
you are now.“
Apparently the man had trouble to recognise the year with the help of some signs,
he was just directed after that film in which he played the schizophrenic: "Spider":
2002, 10.1 that year.
„In the calendar I see 10.1. In 2002 and will go further back.“
„You will not do this, I do not admit it if I have counted from 10 to 1 down, you
will wake calmly and are again in Here and Now.“
She acted as she had planned for it, besides, the first time looked to him in the
face, after 10 minutes. Yes, all together she had used one hour. Whether it was
demanded too much or that her overtaxed senses played her one absurd prank:
the face of the man became younger from moment at moment, the same effect
like with RF? In 2002, this was the extreme what she could admit and he still
looked like 40, she hoped imploringly that this nightmare came to an end, she was
not called magician, had she to give up the job? Since as a mistress about the
years she did not want herself to and may strike up.
When Ralph stood up, finally, a little bit exhausted and looked around to
Madleine, he saw them on an armchair, collapsed in himself. Startled he hurried
to her, she tore out from her solidification. To calm them something, he knelt to
himself even before them, enclosed her shoulders and reached with it only that
she started to cry unrestrained.
„What is to me to you? Now does not say that again something has failed, I have
dreamt only so weird stuff.“
„And this was more or less the only spot that he lied to them so properly. Since he
had pursued precisely the events backward which had occurred during all
occupational years and privately. Of course for him that he discussed the death of
the father not further. Yes, he wanted to say goodbye at least in thoughts once
again to the mother properly, Madleine had to have anticipated it, long before the
event she fetched back him. Thus remained in his thought only that interview in
which he had put away for several minutes too much place for his feelings, from
there he was quiet also compared with Madleine. Meekly he had gone by time
and space, he felt physically and emotionally, how him all that loaded.“
(makaberes laughter trying)
„If one can call in such a way if you saw in the mirror, you may call me with
pleasure a witch, I have neither wanted this nor desired.“
She had trembled in the whole body when he sat down to her feet and she
touched, because too strong feelings did not want to admit them, however, could
not defend itself also really against it. His roles had gone over to him either in
meat and blood, or also he felt something for them. The awful idea, he would play
something to her, it far pushed from herself.
He stepped to the next mirror, took care of version. He would have thanked a
makeup artist for this work, but, however, his new face was so real as only one
face could be.
„I believe this you even. If there is a punishment for undevoutness, it is this. Must I
spend now the next years with it.?“
„Even if I am not responsible for what do you have with this face for a problem?
None, I would say, it is the most attractive what can have a man at the age of 40
„I have hated just this: to hear forever how fantastically I would look. What do
you probably mean, why I accepted roles in which one did not see my face either
or saw different? May be right if one says: a man did not have to go nicely, only
attractive look, to me my face made no difference almost always, I could not
select it to me. If this should be a present, this was badly selected.“
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Published on e-Stories.org on 16.11.2009.