Broken dreams (12)
Scene WHERE - EXACTLY WHERE - TIME OF DAY
55 INSIDE - FLAT OF RF - MEET
VOICE OF THE WRITER OF THE SCREENPLAY OFF-SCREEN
„I have hotly felt beloved Madleine, I anticipate that you this address cannot make
happy, but as you know very well all my life for women like for men, also what
concerns the SEX. You ask so dull things such as„ Ralph as a great type in "Maid
in Manhattan". Does not want to say that this film Desolate ones seemed to me, on
the contrary: he had to be only nice, and that is still understated - unfortunately-: he
was for me the dark-haired angel who floated just so past. If Engel seems suitable,
and for a man: amazingly: the same year, as well as "Spider" was produced, does
not surprise you that I had to look twice. Ralph has himself possibly in "Maid in
Manhattan" bored, or has felt it as a vacation, because he was in such a way as the
men envy him, women round him swarmed, may be also valid in the present.
Around immediately on the „English patient“ come to speak - because it interests
you how I see my figures in my screenplay: by no means by this form of mental
cruelty. A great face cover with mask who arises such an idea?! We women need
hours to see attractively from, or in such a way as men see us with pleasure. Ralph
in the rotary year 1996? This question shames me, the man was able unshaven,
uncombed, unwashed maybe even (to put the crown on to the exaggeration and
you know like I ordinarily exaggerations hate.) in the bathroom door run past, or
sloping look in the mirror, are found incredibly and this then was right even. No,
you hold me possibly too surely for overexcited, the fact that I leave this world
shortly, lets me write lines which I mean thus: "Maid in Manhattan" for me so
fantastically because he did not have to cry, finally, sometimes or had to go, was to
be looked only incredibly attractively.“
Ralph could find this neither entertainingly nor nicely, on the contrary. Who
compared then already films with each other, which one with little excitement, the
other where he could properly gas. As a mental cruelty he had never seen this
mask, he understood certainly also still not enough from the thoughts of the women
who had looked at his face.
„His reaction was also absolutely different than somebody could expect it which
knew him not really: he searched a corner in this room for himself fast and threw in
the book then exactly there. His unbelievable fury - which who knows where from
came - hung up together with the fact that he did not want to be objective with
„Maid in Manhattan“ and was able. He had not accepted this work to be nice and
just only this, this had become to him meanwhile not enough.
His thoughts circled round the fact that there were women who wanted to see just
only this: then the Princes Charming to whom the woman of his heart placed on the
horse and this it was already or virtually. In the kitchen he did not find so
immediately the distraction, took a glass, it poured with any juice up to the edge
fully, even a little about the fact that to him ran through the hand. Nervously he
drank, tried to calm down. Glass blank and he of course as beside oneself as
Quite slowly his hand pressed together the glass as if he wants to examine how
much strength was still in the just hand. Few minutes this lasted, then the vessel split,
splinters were in his skin. Possibly that it hurt, he took it right. Could it be that SHE
made his work consciously, therefore, thus under it because he just came not in
sweet fairy tale films, hence, ridden and did not fight only surely against knights to
go as a beaming and fascinating hero of the place...?
56 INSIDE - KITCHEN - MEET
„What is wrong with you, man?
She scrutinised him startled. His look was only empty, the blood dripped
meanwhile onto the ground, he made no arrangements to remove glass and blood.
Warily she did it, the hand connected to him. She tried to move him to stand simply
on, instead of this he preferred to remain on a chair in the kitchen.
(in a flat voice)
„Leave alone me now for the next half an hour, please.“
„Madleine went to Marianne, they searched both the screenplay, thought where he
had thrown down it, he had partially torn the side to clarify how, „until here here
and not further with the junk.“
Madleine flew over the side, smiled in peculiar manner. When these sentences
originated, that friend was not already 4 weeks any more among the living persons.
And because Madleine could not know how to have once contact with actors who
just became from HER before pitilessly under it, wrote Madleine really in her style
further. Besides, she had thought to herself absolutely nothing, Marianne also did
not know exactly, when that had died THEM.“
57 INSIDE - A SITTING ROOM in RF `s FLAT - MEET
„Now, nevertheless, I go to him, one does not know what he could do as a next
one, he must have been irritated quite if this is the right word.“
Madleine looked to her that it did not disturb him with pleasure in his
selfconsiderations, but she worried too much.
„Act what you would absolutely like to do, nicely thinks that it is the right thing for
him, he may not always creep away thus in himself.“
Madleine `s voice off-screen
„ He may find out by no means that too many remarks about his work of me come.
If this should happen, I can probably dress very warmly.“
58 INSIDE - KITCHEN - MEET
RALPH seemed to feel that one wanted to help him and he did not want just now
this help. Before Marianne had entered the kitchen, he asked....
(a little bit greedily)
„Is the half an hour already around, my love?
MARIANNE approached unmoved near enough him to see to him directly quite
quietly in his eyes. To have to speak not from on high, she went to the squat. It was
uncomfortable a little bit and she hoped that he soon behaved again normally.
„What is so bad in it if I you help now.“
„Cannot be directed at your both simply after what I wish now most ardently: my
rest, only this?!“
Because to her of the backs something started to hurt, it got up, however, stepped
only so behind him that she could lean against a cupboard.
„Does not sound after you. Have the feeling, you are too exhausted to know now
exactly what you would want.“
She laid to him warily the hands on the shoulders, felt how these easily started to
Marianne `s voice off-screen
„I did not want to feel exactly this. If I am right, he breaks down either immediately
or thinks up a new variation like he me from the kitchen agrees.“
Ralph `see voice off-screen
„I can make nothing before to her. She has belonged to herself my voice so often,
has dissected my facial play and gesture formally. Clear I wanted 2 minutes ago still
my rest. Now she stands behind me because she does not want to see to me any
more in the face, because of fear, I could have that perfidious glitter in my eyes. I
hate myself for the moments at which I have shown my feelings too often openly,
has not done good to me. They.? Is her thoughtfulness possibly quite embarrassing
for me? How she had said sometimes jokingly: „You with your aristocratic blood....
every too private feeling is disagreeable to you? Then is not really to be helped
He had said nothing to this putative joke, rumour-wise his family about the centuries
was related to a woman whom Heinrich VIII about everything had loved, had not
married but still, she had given at least one son him. Though he found out from
relatives that his current family tree expelled him as the 8th cousin of the sometime
once king his growing Charles, but, nevertheless, he had never planned to squeeze
before any work. On the contrary: to have to excuse as around himself for the fact
that he came from a very noble family, he acted too much, up to the edge of the
exhaustion. And now except him this could favouring really nobody.
Of course she had provoked. I have dealt with my forefathers only alongside
whether there close to Heinrich VIII what had happened who wanted to know this
even today. And her provoking, cheeky kind had been first it which had reminded
me: no, help accept? For what?“
„Ralph was really in a situation very disagreeable for him. Marianne felt and felt
exactly that he needed help urgently, not only because he started to freeze, although
it was warm in the kitchen. The "package", what he carried again, existed of pride,
introversion, shyness, and the consciousness: he does not want to have this in such
a way because it showed him supposedly smaller in her eyes. And with it his
physical size of 1.80 metres was not meant.“
Marianne felt how he stronger trembled and this was the moment for them where
she said almost indifferently.
„I can only ask you to let your pride, restraint or shyness of me sometimes aside and
lay you, finally, to, you need it.“
Their voice had shaken before excitement, but she saw that it had reached what she
„Yes, you should have your will, I will lie down something, then maybe I forget that
me there somebody can still excite, so to speak, from On the other side.“
Marianne did not let make a note of her surprise straight away. He had not only
read these sides, but also had taken seriously thus as they were not maybe meant.
At many places she picked out rather, held for the as admiration-solemnly writer
the man. The writer about said witty proofs On the other side: „If my favorite God
Osiris has his face, I must be not afraid of the death.“ How she could also forget
that since that fateful interview about 2005 he was not ready any more to show up
in his soul. 1993 still floated apparently like a sword of Damocles about him and
her became bad with the thought of 22.12., 28.12 and all days which it could not
celebrate, in any case, any more. Their own mother had had her last life day exactly
on the 27.12.1994. Mysterious situation: one day earlier, but a year later and both
women had not even known themselves, as well as. She would not forget
accidentally to congratulate him for the birthday. For them were the people who
invited themselves with him as by chance on the 22.12 every year rather absent-
mindedly and had seen either never in his curriculum vitae, or exactly had never just
looked in the few open, but interviews going to heart, had exactlyed.... Interview
2005? She did not believe her eyes to trust: his whole facial play if only infinite
longing and melancholy had expressed from a certain moment for them. And wisely
he had never again admitted this state publicly, but it had made him humanely for
those people who to him pull every weakness not only, but they also considered as
this what she was: quite of course. He might only have injured himself and have felt
maybe also humiliated.
In addition this often uncanny sadness came in EACH of his films from 1993 (and if
this pain was played apparently, fitted exactly in the role, just the sadness
sometimes did not fit: a real villain shows no almost melancholy expression) it also
had been able to read from photographs, in many expressions which showed
though a smile or laughter, but it differed from those before 28.12.1993 for them
completely definitely. And one had often enough confirmed to her that she could
read very well in human faces.“
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Published on e-Stories.org on 08.11.2009.