Broken dreams (7)
Scene WHERE - EXACTLY WHERE - TIME OF DAY
"With all gossip they had arrived of course where RF was not so frequent now any
more: in the Leavesden film Studios, just because of Harry Potter's films and other
films which he sometimes let pass in complete silence revue."
OUTSIDE - AREA OF ENTRANCE - MEET
A group by chance 30 students had appeared to welcome the teacher and his
companions. RF allowed to them to collect so many impressions in the studios for
any houseworks and personal studies as only possibly and one arranged to meet for
one of the following days to exercises. Because the student was clear very well that
RF a lot expects from them and did not give indeed free of charge free choice of the
learning possibilities, they thanked courteously and made that they came on
investigation tour. If observed Ralf surprises the happy people who went joking
„And up to now did you still have no failures with the kind to permit freedoms to the
RF shook the head.
(of the everlasting explanations because of exhaustedly)
„If I did not have, at school they must often enough learn strictly after curriculum, why
do not perceive here only with the eyes and ears, I think, one should not
underestimate the imagination and I will let them sometime write down some
impressions, from the today. If they know certainly.“
„RF considered convulsively how he should turn to Ralf. The young man seemed to
him absolutely able to hear unusual from him to themselves also sometimes.“
"What I still wanted to say, actually: soon is the next day of death of the unknown
friend of Madleine. Did you would feel like accompanying me to Madleine, all the
same whether do we fly now to her or whether does Madleine come
Ralf nodded surprised.
„What do you expect there from me?“
Ralf got into the habit of observing his mentor now better, his facial play and gesture
had fascinated him already of here, this now...
„I would want only that you get to know the person in me whom I am, moreover, still.“
Besides, he did not look at the young man, it seemed almost as if it was very
disagreeable to him now that he had decided to open to a person.
Ralf heard very well the hesitant and tense out and had to be almost fear now on
occasion with RF together, certainly sometimes privately, even more, however, on
work. He was just about to pull back his approval. Madleine and his meetings with
her had taken place up to now at another level, this spot....?
„When is the day of death of that woman who seems so interesting thus his now after
„Nice the next week, Wednesday, on the 24th of April...“
Before he could say something else, rang his mobile phone. He decreased and on his
face happy surprise appeared. He meant Ralf, nevertheless, that may already go to
the carriage before.
(in a hurry)
„Seats just in the airman to London, was such an inspiration of me, or notion, you
could need me at the moment maybe? And I have time enough.“
„Have the unsafe feeling, you can read occasionally my thoughts, Ralf, your friend -
or what always he for you is - and I go back to London. Then my driver will fetch
you, when will you be here?“
„If not still what interferes, in about 2-3 hours, till then: do please nothing rash.“
RF promised to do this, the last hello said her fast and put the mobile phone back in
his jacket pocket.
RF went a little faster, ran back even a short piece, to the waiting car when he had
wanted it before. A little bit out of breath he let his carriage door engage and waved,
now it can go off.
20 INSIDE - PASSENGER AREA - MEET
The driver was surprised only briefly, it concerned him, finally, nothing if his boss
moved occasionally sometimes a little faster than maybe well for him was. The press
had put sometimes the rumour in the world, he would have a light cardiac defect.
Nobody knew which happened it at his request because he wanted to have a little bit
„Possibly what thrilling, MR. F.?“
„If one can probably say. What you mean, Ralf, Madleine asked me to do nothing
rash, however, would have to know that I practically never do this. Why she reminds
me today of it, today she will arrive because.“
He had thought almost according to, as if he could see in Ralf already a sort of a
good friend to whom one should have unconditional trust.
„Hear, my good: in 2-3 hours this lady will arrive at the airport, you will fetch them.“
He passed the photograph of Madleine to the driver. Such a little thing could be also
finished by the mobile phone on the printer which had been installed in the carriage.
Ralf was surprised only moderately. RF was not only mysterious, he acted if it had to
be, still as fast as years ago.
RF saw the mistrust in Ralfs face and laughed.
„Madleine is a sort of a colleague who helps me now and again to move my ideas.
Nevertheless, my writing style has given the discount something and she can criticise
without becoming coarse, older men like I are sensitive there a little bit, everything
clearly with you?“
Ralf shook confused the head, however, agreed. He had more common
characteristics with the big RF than he could anticipate. Good sign for the future?
„Of deadly boredom could originate if the viewer and listener really got every
conversation between the men who will also ascertain in future resemblances in the
being. Now: Madleine is fetched as demanded and we get into the events, as a
Madleine, Ralf and RF in the flat of RF a disagreeable disturbance get to know...“
21 INSIDE - SITTING ROOM in RF `s FLAT - EVENING
Madleine has made it to themselves after the plentiful dinner just comfortable, her
water whistle gives an aromatic smell of itself, the RF irritates only moderately and
Ralf looks taken aback: he knows them only cigar smoking?
„Is a sordid attempt to accustom the dense smokes completely from to me because
of RF so bit by bit, you understand?“
RF looks at them mockingly, this time he believes her no word. Which of itself
convinced woman would become for a man - and all the same WHO is this man! -
give up the lover? If she not even smoked without any hurry and, besides, especially
intensely, she sometimes had brain waves of all kind.
In this atmosphere one energetically rings in the front door. And when RF steps
personally near the speech arrangement, he hears a strict male voice which tolerates
Voice of a POLICEMAN
„Police, MR. F.! They will have to give us for some moments your precious time,
In RF uncanny fury climbed up. Clear, he controlled the press very well, but the
police had to lead somewhere an act about him. And what did have to do the
impolite?! The guy disgraced of him before his guests! If the devil knew what had
been taken down there about him: had his driver "overlooked" a red traffic light once
again? Then one should not get on the nerves of him...
This was no hidden joke, this could be understood as an attack on his person. What
it helped. And he opened both doors, decreased thoughtfully, internally cooking, to
both people who stared at him aghast. So much he also tried to pull together himself,
his turkey-red face spoke volumes.
In any case, the policeman in the seeming weekend suit - carried he none of the usual
uniforms - the door quietly closed behind itself, he came alone, briefly looked
around, greeted politely.
"To excuse, please, my kind, MR. F.! Though this strange incident deals with your
name, but one of your students has possibly permitted to himself a joke within which
studios, which today were visited. We were made go after the thing, is sorry me very
much, am fan of you."
(almost again amuses, but still seriously)
„I leave this to you, worth man, still was long no reason to be so impolite towards
myself in the arrangement. An easy "request" would have been sufficient. However,
must insist on the fact that you itself first of all with my guests excuse.“
Madleine pulled amazed the forehead in folds, however, in RF `see face she read
that this was one of his tricks again to manage disagreeable, to the types he wanted
to get rid fast.
And it functioned: the official apologised very friendly.
Ralf watched out not to accept this excuse what might plan RF?
„Now, unfortunately, however, to the essentials, must exist on it, but I would have to
ask you on the department, however, thinks: here it is more comfortable.“
RF nodded in dismay. More seriously than he had thought.
„These admissions were passed to us, do not ask, from whom. If we ourselves do
The detective superintendent laid different photos on the table on which one saw
follower: “My day will come“ „Why you have not prevented it“ and this not only in
garish colours, but also in neon writing. And "RF" always thus as an unequivocal
indication in addition.
Madleine saw how RF wanted to collapse almost in itself, interfered fast.
„Where do you see now the joke? A mad fan has certainly thought up, or? Has one
removed these messages meanwhile?“
„If you permit, lady, accepts, you speak by consent of MR. F.? Then you do not hold
me now please for cracked: the messages disappeared after about 1 half an hour.“
„Nevertheless, only a bad light trick?“
The detective superintendent shook regretfully the head. It did not seem to disturb
him oddly enough any more if other people interfered.
„Is sorry me if I cannot calm you, but one could guarantee at these places neither
source of light nor other clues. A sort of extrasensory, also means our specialist for
the unusual cases which one cannot solve alone with science. We are occupied there
very much because we do not know whether dangerous there comes up to you, Mr.
F. Da find neither photographs instead of, nor one could explain it with normal mind.“
The detective superintendent saw like RF to itself slowly on the phone to moved and
misunderstood it, because RF went rather like to trance what only Ralf and Madleine
„No reason to trouble personally the chief constable Mr. F. Ich assures you who is
necessary local police and if it, those of the whole country, will supervise you from
now from round-the-clock.“
(how from a dream waking, under one's breath)
„Also this still, is the last what I would need now.“
„If you think that is absolutely necessary, you know, how does the press rush at
every nonsense which hangs together anyhow with my person? Supervise, but not
so conspicuously that I every policeman soon with name know.“
„I expect there your undivided attention, this is no joke and already no chicanery by
the police, I may be recommended?“
All three people nodded and when the official had left, finally, the flat, RF could try
again to react normally.
Madleine saw how he sat down in the armchair, leant back which closed eyes, was
deeply unsafe and was exhausted. She nodded to Ralf.
„Even if it might be maybe too late for it: make to us all one nice coffee, to me
completely so strongly, does not want to get no cardiac infarction.“
Ralf left alone the both, RF started to calm down, looked at Madleine seriously.
„Sit down please to me, Madleine. I know that you will not decrease from me that I
feel more than pure sympathy for you if you should love Ralf, I will take this there.
These messages come something too suddenly. And you also know that I could also
give up to now no meaning, why to the extrasensory. To me such is never pushed
shut, but You?“
Madleine blushed immediately.... The man from whom she accepted he would be
able to feel only hatred for them, almost his love confessed to her? Where should it
come? Only because she could handle informally with him, this fan gossip with big
fun took note, but the thing with her.... She sat down to him, laid her hand on his.
„Now you are certainly raised and need mental support, I understand of course.
When she has killed herself at that time - unfortunately, I am persuaded of it - I
already asked myself: „Which man is worth it that one throws away own life because
of HIM?“ However, one cannot express thus, every fan feels differently and for me
you have become already more than a good friend, is quite true. If it should be
pleasant to you for tonight, I will will try to take - with your help - with her soul
contact on, this is possible, you know this. I believe the tape recorder voices not
only, these are real voices of people who were also real. But by hypnosis you will
see them then later in her right life, you want this?“
„Had held to You both always for two crazy birds, until I could hear that voice on the
tape recorder myself, she knew things which only she could know, and when it
positioned itself out, all that was right and no trick was present, no other
manipulation.... So much I was also shocked and was concerned: Well, what does
not act you leaves.“
She got up when Ralf with the coffee cups came and they put to themselves
everybody to three around the table and everybody dwelled on his thoughts.
Ralf indicated that he was tired and said goodbye, without not making sure whether
RF him maybe wanted to speak the next days.
RF shook the head and pressed to him thankfully the hand.
„We see ourselves the days, Ralfi.“
When the door had shut behind Ralf, her look walked by the clock: meanwhile 20
Madleine `s eyes walked quickly through the generous space, got stuck in a very
comfortable couch which was suitable excellently for the common purpose.
„If I may ask you here over here, big masters. No, seriously: the exercises go best of
all if, besides, you can lie down, but do not fall asleep?“
He cannot be requested long, lay down, she switched off almost all lights, so that his
face completely lay in the dark.
She pulled up an as comfortable armchair, bent to him. It did not interest them
particularly whether he could look at them.
„Exactly listen to me now please. I know that we need no formalities and excessive
politeness. If I try these exercises with you, only because of that to see whether you
can be hypnotised or are too tightened for here. I know very well your imagination
without which you could not form your roles at all and are able still, but here this
becomes maybe dangerous. If something seems to you funnily or what I cannot fancy
now at all: you should get fear, I will read it in your face and wake you then, all right?“
„Is fear something what a man may never get according to your opinion?“
„Nevertheless, generally the feeling fear may be inappropriate for a man, or?“
„We want to discuss it what would suit for me or what you do not want to have on
my face? You forget that I had to play more than once the feeling fear. Why it also
do not feel sometimes in really?! Lot, so.“
Madleine did not let make a note of her annoyance further, she knew what she
spoke of, it brought to them both nothing if he an amount of unsightly from the
subconsciousness scuffle got, as this could happen.
„Quite well, only wanted to prewarn you. I accept, you feel just loose and very much
relaxed after which you have just fully blethered me? Should you not calm down
completely and can be relaxing, it brings nothing. I wait - we say sometimes - 2
minutes, then signal to me please that you have yourself fully in the power and feel
rest, but no lies.“
RF felt big cheerfulness and already wanted to look at her face, certainly it worked
like a charming naiad, but, nevertheless, he still concentrated upon complete rest
which he could ordinarily feel with yoga. When he almost fell asleep, he heard
„Very nicely and now a great colour of your choice introduces to you, exactly look
and looks whether this colour owns a structure. What always you feel with the
colour: Warmth, cold or other, everything importantly. Speak with this colour.“
With the last sentence she left the actor completely to his images which came very
22 Dream sequence
INSIDE - RF `see inner life - EVENING / NIGHT
„It should prove to be true what had feared Madleine. RF had so many unsightly
edged out sequences in the subconsciousness which had lurked apparently only to
be pulled out.“
Madleine had to him leave what he wanted to allow to come up thus in colour. He
fancied just a heavenly blue when a white light on him zugeschnellt came and got him
to a place which he had never before seen: Light figures touched him of all sides, then
a very nice young woman crowded between the male and female transparent beings.
Like a fairy she worked, almost black hair, her face.
So much he also tried to escape this charming, sad face, he felt her hand in his,
quietly she said something.
Glow-red became the paradise, he fell deeper and deeper in this dream, but the
heavenly empire was not yet to an end: he saw himself floating by a golden gate,
expected again to see something attractive, but this did not seem. Like Odysseus in
the underworld he saw beside himself, behind himself fields which existed of flames,
the souls of deads stretched to him her arms begging against, then a castle of black
marble which insisted from nothing but columns, in every column another figure:
Hamlet, in the hands dead person's skull, Hades with his mocking and common grin
in the face, a skeleton clattered from somewhere here to him near, warned: „Do not
look around too daringly,big artist, you want to experience all fears?“ He saw himself
nodding, stood suddenly beside himself as very much a young man of 20 years which
became older, however, very slowly.
And suddenly the soul of the wonderful dark-haired woman appeared again beside
him, tapped to him on the shoulder.
„I have lost you, before I died, or: actually, I cannot lose you at all, you want to be
too often with me, is it right?“
„How do you get on?“
He looked round in his both figures, recognised them by her younger face. Thus she
looked when he was about 6 years old: his mother?
Soul of his mother nodded very sadly.
„Give you a good advice, boy: do not bring on the minds of those dead people from
whom you imagine, you would be responsible for her death, yes, you see me as your
very young mother. If I become even younger, in maybe 5-6 years I can look similar
to the soul of a child, here my recollection will also have certainly gone out to you,
but do not come any more, it hurts me to see suffering you only. Even if the grief is
only played grief, it breaks to me the heart. Before you ask: yes, also the soul of a
mother who may stay more in the infinite width of the heavenly fields, yes, also that
can feel grief.“
„If to me something attacked, would I recognise you?“
„Not even remember of putting even an end to your life, only because you would like
to be with me, you will only meet me in another life, possibly that then we recognise
each other, this is not sure also, probably lives.“
She touched very softly his hair - that of the younger man as well as the older,
looked affectionately from on the other hand and disappeared.
Before he did not know any more where he should turn first, woke him Madleine.
She had been able to observe very well how from his eyes the tears ran without
respite, he said constantly something, but only incomprehensibly. His face reflected
only infinite, almost inhuman terror and grief again.
23 INSIDE - SITTING ROOM in RF `s FLAT - NIGHT
„Madleine did not know straight away whether she should say him what she herself
had seen. Of course she had let out of sight during his dream his face no minute: If it
is now that the matt light which it swung warily over his face - he did not feel it - to
her something fluttered before, or.... So much extrasensory was itself to her almost
too much: she had seen his face for few moments when he counted about 31 years,
then the face had retrieved his current appearance, only slightly older what she
confused very much. Possibly that her overtaxed senses played her one this time
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Published on e-Stories.org on 03.11.2009.