Afraid

Unrest lies upon me lately
in this realm
Longing for a place
that is calm
A feeling
that I need to go
To escape
this lingering low

Yet I’m afraid
to take that step
Remembering hostility
I’ve met
Afraid of
what I’ll leave behind
Afraid of
what I will find

Things don’t turn out
the way you want them to
Afraid to find
this saying to be true
A step into reality
The place
I avoided to be
Terrified to find
the world still the same
Going back
from where I came